Jordi Boixadós: “Is recança or remorse better?”

Novel·list, translator, musician and actor, Jordi Boixadós (1958) focuses on his last novel·la, Donar-ho tot (The Bell), a story that “is neither autobiographical nor autofiction, and that it is certain that it has many personal anecdotes so that it made it easier to follow the course of the way of thinking and trying to write "the narrator compensates."

The work begins with a man at the mercy of the sixties that he lived in a lost house in Occitania, with the visit of a woman who gives the duu an exhaustive review of his life, crossed by his lack of vital initiative, an element that, the author explains, will be one of the spurs: “I wanted to construct two characters who have a way to approach life completely differently: one is very anxious and ambitious and trepitjarà qui calgui, and the other is not gens ambiciós, te ideas that he has not quite realized, he is a pusil·nime, and he cares about life because he is not capable of facing it. but no ho saps mai”.

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For the writer, the narrator, whose name we do not know, "has some reactions that can be difficult to understand, remembering some of the strange reactions of characters from Swedish novels - apart from Swedish, translated from English, French and Italian -. They have an other mentality, and in the end this character explains it." mateix. In the first years of the young woman I also began to wear a mica and I was missing, but at a certain moment I made a decision and decided that I could not continue there, contrary to the Arab character, at the end of a writing period I began to identify, in order to the point that I had to remember that jo no soc així”.

The protagonist, moreover, is marked by a paternity that he cannot exercise: "A person is going to explain that he had a lover, married, and she had become pregnant, and I'm going to think what it would be like if he happened to me, in a reactionary way. I have a fill of 44 years, and I was 23 years old, and I'm going to think that surely ara ho would be quite different. It is parla molt de maternitat, just missing, and of paternitat, in canvi, molt poc”.

“Those who are 17 years old and are going to enter university the day Franco is going to die have a lot of trouble”

A third element that will trigger the novel will be mental health, since there is a person with both important problems, “the typical person who has overwhelming sensitivity, but has psychiatric problems, which is very creative but now happens fatally,” says Boixadós. "Tothom, directly or indirectly, has had some experience related to his own mental health or someone else's mental health," he continues. "It doesn't mean anything, but it's not your fault, it's like if someone is the only one who is guilty of having a heart or mental problem. It's obvious that they have seen these personal problems." It is important, because there are three novels that follow that appear, to the extent that they are more important here, and also reflect on the kind that there are medicines thanks to which the children can have a normal life.”

The novel is narrated in two plans, from one side the present, and from the other the passat, especially the effervescència of the transition: "Es que ho vaig viure. Els que teníem 17 anos y vam enter universitat el día que Franco will die hem tingut molta sort, perquè ho ho vivíem com si yo no tangués aturador i com si el món fos meravellós i màgic, and in part face ho conservem. No ens adonàvem de molts merders, perquè in qualsevol moment hauria pogut petar tot, just think about the crims of Atocha, ETA, Puig Antich... We have a mica a posthippy mentalitat, and there it's going to be a very big bubbling.

Tot pleat li fa to consider whether he would have to have a different life, if he is more determined or if he poses to the leader of the music group he had, he also claims the segon de bord: "He is a figure that is part of the leadership, but not in his appearance, because he is in the shadow. The narrator is lucid, and in the Seva reflected on a very big recança. But what is it, a recança for not having done anything that has happened to you or the remorse for having done something because you believe that you have done something wrong to someone? trencar amb tot, encapsular-se i anar-se'n a viure lluny, en es reconstrueix.”

In addition to having a couple of adolescent and young groups, Boixadós has had a career as a singer-songwriter, with both of his published albums – and currently with the writing band Malalletra –, “a passion that is going out and reborn, but it always comes back,” he explains. What's more, the theater has given me a role in the novel of my first life: "After 50 years, I started studying acting, and joined the company La Perfida. Thanks to the theater I have recovered part of an emotionality that I had when I was young, I was hypersensitive, so I will have to pose for the rest of my life, but not "I'm bad. Life has become too much of a theater," he assures, aware that "there are many times that I've discarded and I'm thinking that I'll come."